The Messiah performances are this weekend and we have a dress rehearsal tonight that’s scheduled to last three hours but might be longer. On Tuesday at rehearsal, the woman next to me mentioned tonight’s rehearsal and I said, “It says ‘dress rehearsal’ on the sheet so we need to wear concert attire, right?” and she said, “Oh, no, not for Friday. You just wear whatever you’d normally wear to rehearsal.”
I’ve never been to a dress rehearsal where I didn’t wear my concert attire. Isn’t that what “dress rehearsal” means? In typical Lorie fashion, I’m completely stressed out about it. I don’t want to show up in black concert clothes and have everyone else be in jeans, and I don’t want to show up in jeans and have everyone be in black concert clothes. I have never had a good sense of style and, especially when my family was really poor, I often just didn’t own the right kind of clothes for certain occasions. One of my greatest sources of social anxiety is that I’m not going to be dressed properly for the occasion. I think this is probably a typical girl thing anyway, but I really do take it to new levels. I am still scarred from a thing I went to in high school where my best friend and I wore sweaters and jeans and everyone else rolled in wearing church clothes. We actually hid in a back room for the entire event. This has actually kept me from going to things once or twice – if I can’t find someone I trust to ask about what I should wear, then I might just stay home.
I cannot exactly skip dress rehearsal because I don’t know how I should dress, though. I’m wondering if I should email the director or if that’ll make me look like even more of an idiot. Currently I’m wearing black pants and a black wrap top over a black shirt with tiny white polka-dots, so if I wore that to rehearsal tonight and everyone else came in concert attire, I wouldn’t look too out of place. But maybe I should just trust Angela, since she has been in it for two years now and swears they don’t dress for dress rehearsals.
ARGH. I don’t know what to do.
Also, I would like to share that I started to come down with a cold yesterday, which is just perfect since I’m supposed to spend like 8 hours singing over the next three days. I busted out the Throat Coat tea and the Halls and they seem to be holding the cough at bay, but I’m still worried.