this is ours

Let me tell you a little bit about this place where we live.

I drove out of campus yesterday and I saw three cars with Virginia Tech stuff on them, and I wasn’t even really looking for it. I saw my neighbor’s little VT flag in the yard. I currently live and work nearly two hours from campus and still, always, it’s as if it’s right here in town. We used to complain about that, sometimes. How people would buy maroon SUVs with orange trim. How all these people thought they were Techies when they had no connection to the school at all. But the thing is, they do. We all do.

This is our community, this big little corner of the state, southwest and central Virginia. Roanoke’s the biggest city, and really, in the grand scheme of things, it’s not so big at all. But you have Vinton and Salem and Bedford and Lynchburg, and you have Radford and Christiansburg and Pulaski, you have Catawba and Elliston and Galax and Floyd, and you have Blacksburg. They’re all cities, places of their own, but they’re like neighborhoods too, part of our bigger community. This is our community.

We all know someone at Tech, or someone who went to Tech, or someone whose son or daughter went to Tech, or someone who works there. On Saturdays in the fall we watch how seemingly every car on the road is flying Hokie flags, like a parade heading south down 81 to Blacksburg every weekend. Every kitschy restaurant in town has Hokie stuff on the walls. Every store in town sells Hokie gear. If your pets are very sick and your vet doesn’t know what’s wrong, you go to Tech. If you want to be an engineer one day, you go to Tech. If you want to play sports at a D-I school, you look at Tech. Virginia Tech is our school. It’s our hometown university and so many of us feel a connection to it in some way, big or small.

It’s weird to see our local anchors giving interviews to the big guys. It’s weird to see the big guys sitting in their chairs with Blacksburg’s gorgeous backdrop behind them. We feel weirdly protective watching our people in Blacksburg get their asses handed to them in press conferences. They’re out of their element. This is new to them. They’re grieving too. I want to ask someone to give them time to get it all sorted out. I believe they did the best job they knew how to do. I am sure they made mistakes. I am sure they will second-guess themselves for the rest of their lives, that in fact they’ve already started. I am sure there will be time to figure out what went wrong and where and how. I’m mad at bloggers sitting in California or wherethehellever calling the police and the administration murderers. I’m mad at journalists asking the Blacksburg Chief of Police what this says about the failure of Homeland Security, and making this into an agenda issue. Those are our people you’re putting through the wringer.

The bodies of the dead are in Roanoke. Their families are still being notified. There’s still blood on the floors and walls and desks and stairwells in Norris. I don’t want to see the cell phone video of the gunshots another time. I don’t want to listen and think about how every shot is someone’s life being blasted away. I want the right answers, the right things to say to my sisters, to our own students on campus. I work at a college. I have two sisters in college. I have a third sister starting college in less than two years.

And, you know, we recognize the far-reaching implications of this. We know that it’s bigger than all of us. But at the same time, we’re thinking, this is ours. This is our community. This is our school. These are our kids, our friends, our sisters, our colleagues. This is our grief, our sorrow, our confusion. It belongs to all of us.

Comments 6

  • Right, all of us.

  • The president gave a sucky speech. I know it’s a very important thing to many people that he went there at all and so quickly (unlike N.O. which is, now that I think about it, so so so so freakin’ weird) but his speech wasn’t even a speech. He just ticked off a list of events that was handed to him. “They woke up, went to class, things took a bad turn, became worst tragedy on college campus in U.S. history, now you’re all seeking comfort and finding it in each other. The houses of worship are open and people are praying for you” -his last two lines with the scripture bit were closet to a speech he got. It’s not that I hate him so, it was just awful and makes it harder for me to understand how people see him as an “everyman” when he just comes off, to me, all the time as so disconnected.

    I watched a stream of the convocation from here at my desk and though just about everyone else did very well.

    When I saw that Ryan Clark was in band I couldn’t help but believe that you and/or your sisters have had to have run into him at some point. I hope you’re all still doing well.

  • I agree with you 100% about these poor, poor people whose worlds have stopped turning being paraded in front of the national press. Everytime I see Larry King ask some other ridiculous question, I cringe. Must we add insult to injury?

  • Thanks for this post. It made me cry. We’re all sorry for the VT community, the losses, the unneeded national berating, the flood of strangers not necessarily there to do the right thing.

  • Coverage of this just continues to seem totally wrong.

  • Hey girl, kids have gone back to class – some of them… how are you and yours doing?

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